Faith in Him Most

It was windy in Darul Quran.Sometimes I felt like I was in a northen part of the world.We was assured to wear a sweater.Can you imagine how strong the wind is?I was enjoying the feel of the wind back in my class when my mind just recall when I was in kindergaten, I once ask my teacher.

'Teacher,where is Allah?How come we never saw Him?'My teacher questioned me back.'Can you feel the wind?I nodded.Can you see it?I shooked my head then.Do you believe it's existance?I nodded again.The same as Allah,We never saw Him but we can feel Him in our heart and we believe His existance!'explained my teacher.

That time,I just nodded without any idea what my teacher was babbling about.She just said,You will grow and will understand,look around you and you'll find the answer.

'Allah brought you forth from the wombs of your mothers when you knew nothing,and He gave you hearing,sight and intelligence so that you may give thanks to Him.'
(An-Nahl:78)

Allah give us the sight and hearing for us to observe the world..with the combination of our intelligent,we learn the good and bad things in the world.

Just look at a tiny creature that live in colony like ants and bees..Whenever I saw those creatures, I like to see their doing,may be some will call me an insane but what I'm thinking is differ, I realize that we as muslims can't live alone without a colony just like ants..We need to work together,help each other,love and care with all our heart.There is no such word as tight-fisted in the ant's world.No matter how much they collect their food,it is surely will be shared equally among themselves.In order to built mujahideen,we have to have people which mean more than one,we have to work in a congregation.We have to create people with the same thinking in building a generation that really take islam as a way of their life.We are the one that responsible in it.

What would be the answer, if someone asked you about the most strongest building in the world? I'm sure you will come out with many different answer..'the spinx..or may be Big Wall of China..but have you realize how strong a tree could be..not only strong,but beneficial too,just imagine the roots that is origanally grip through the soil,how it will suck in the water in order to make the tree healthier,sometime if we look the trees and plant around us,we realise how Allah created thing that not just small but also strong..

Whenever,I feel sad, I imagine of the colourful of a rainbow,with that,I felt calm..my friend once give me a word or two that explain about the rainbow..

'Whenever we are disappointed in something,just remember, a rainbow never came out unless after the rain,and every difficulties,they must be a relief.

Look how Allah create the morning with light(sun) for us to work and search for live an how Allah created the dark night for us to rest and the stars as guidence for the ship?

Do you think Allah create something without any purpose?

Let us think the meaning of these verses,

'Is not He(Allah,),who has created the heavens and earth,send down rain from the sky and with it brings forth the beautiful gardens not better than the false gods that they worship?
Just think who has made the earth a place for your residence,caused in it the rivers to flow,set mountains upon it and placed a barrier betwen the two seas?
Just think who answers the oppressed persom when he cries out to Him and relieves his affliction,and makes you,O mankind,inheritors of the earth?
just think who guides you in darkness on the land and the sea and who sends the winds as heralds of good news of His Mercy?
Just think who originates creation and then repeats its production and who gives you sustances from the heavens and the earth?Say'Show us your proof if you are telling the truth!'say,No one in the heavens or in the earth has the knowledge of the unseen except Allah'
(An-Namal:60-65)

Whenever,we felt like being a jerk,just look and observe the world wide,and remember the creator(Allah) and try to searh the peace with Solat and Du'a..
We really didn't need any M16 to fight,what we need is du'a and a full rely on Allah..thats our real weapon..

'He is the Creator of the heavens and the earth,When He decrees a thing,He needs only to say,'Be' and there it becomes,
(Al-Baqarah:117)

Wallahu'alam.

We were having our qiraat class when my ustaz came in with a wirely smile and said'we have a test today!

Usually,when we were stuck in a 'shock test',that was the time when we're starting to make up with excuses for example 'ustaz,we're not ready yet!' or may be we will secretly flip through the pages of our textbook in order to find the correct answer but the problem is we didn't have any chance just to peek on it.Did u get it?

'Ok,Hasmiza,stand up and answer my question and the rest please keep quit..'Now,do you get it?

5 minutes standing in silence really didn't help her much.We try to help her when suddenly my ustaz warn us.

'Imagine that you are dead and I'm Munkar that in charge on questioning you,it is up to you to answer it,right?No one is going to help you,you are alone in your grave.'

Just then my friend pass the textbook and said' Ustaz,this is the reward from the good deed she had done on earth.

My class burst out in laughter but there is a question that really can't leave my mind that time..Am I ready for the real examination in Hereafter?

Just then,I open my quran and read it..Whenever I read from sentence to another,my mind just came out with questions that make me felt guilty of myself.

'Do I pray 5 times daily with true devotion?'

'O Muhammad,say to them.'My Rabb has commanded justice and that you set your faces in the right direction at the time of every prayer and call on Him with true devotion.You shall return to Him as He created you in the beginning'
(Al-A'raf:29)

'Do I ever think just in a moment about death?

'For every nation there is a fixed term,when their term expires,it can neither be delayed for a moment nor can it be made to come early.
(Al-A'raf:34)

Do I wear the appropriate clothes?

'O children of Adam! we have sent down to you clothing to cover your nakedness and as an adornment,however,the best clothing is the clothing of piety.This is one of Allah's revelations so that the people may learn a lesson.
(Al-A'raf:26)

Do I ever realise whatever I'm doing that is bad was going to give the credit for the Satan's vow?

'I will come upon them from the front,from the rear,from the right and from the left,and You will not find most of them to be grateful'
(Al-A'raf:17)

Do I take the Quran as my fully guidance?

'We have revealed the Quran in Truth and with the Truth it has come down:and O Muhammad,We have sent you only to give good news to the believers and to warn the unbelievers.We have divided the Quran into sections so that you may recite to the people with deliberation, and We have sent it down in gradual revelations to suit particular occasions.
(Al-Isra':105-107)

Whenever it came about sitting in an exam, we really hope for a success, that is why sometimes, there are some people that rather not eat just to finish their revision,for me we really need to manage our time wisely in order to get healthy life..coming to our main topic,how can we manage our life in order to success in Hereafter?

Is it enough by getting 4.0 in our CGPA? Or having a good job with lots of money in our hands?

Exams that we sit now is just a determinant for a better life and job but the exam that we will have in the Hereafter is the one that will be the determinant of our destination whether it will end in the heaven or hell(wana'uzubillah)

Now,is the time that we quest our knowledge and conquered the field in becoming not just the true muslim but also the true mukmin,insya allah..

Who is the success?

'Indeed successful are those believers who are humble in their prayers,who avoid vain talk,who are punctual in the payment of Zakah,who guard their private parts except with their spouses or those who are legally in their possession,for in that case they shall not be blamed,however those who seek to go beyond that in lust are the one who shall be the transgressors-who are true to their trust and covenants,and who are diligent about their Salah.These are the heirs,who will inherit paradise,and live therein forever.
(Al-Mu'minun:1-11)

Who is the clever?
Those who remember death.

I remembered myself and you that all the work we have done will be judged in the Day of Judgement..there is no one that will be left adjudged.

Taken the words from Abdullah bin Abu Amru,he said,

'Work for your worldly as if you're going to live forever and work for the next as if you're going to die tomorrow'

Wallahu'alam.

In the KTM...6.00P.M

We have to stop at the next station,"suggested my friend.We haven't pray yet.

Ya,for sure..'I added.With the crowd in the train, we really couldn't even breathe properly..sort of..I'm going back to my house in Bangi having 5 days holiday( felt relieved..)but that day turned out to be a bit miserable at first but an interesting journey at the end..

It all started when we first get off the train at Bandar Tasik Selatan.We walk in searching for the musolla but it turn out to be a 'no musolla' when we asked a girl working at one of the small shops there.We didn't loose our hope.We walk and try to ask a guy.

Alhumdulillah, that is what I want to hear.
"there is a musolla across the road,you have to walk to the other side,told the guy.
After a thank to him, we make our move across the road anxiously as our watch turn to 20 minutes to 7.After performing our prayer, we stop a while at the shop to buy some
food as we haven't ate any that afternoon.

We are waiting for the next train while eating our bread when a group of teenagers appeared and just messing around.They also tried to play a fool with us that make me really not in a good mood that time.

My friend try to calm me that time.'be patient,they just being a bit naughty..'

A few minutes later,our train arrived but it seems that we couldn't fit in it,ya,its true,we didn't fit at all,with the crowd inside and the crowd outside,we nearly been push and fell before we can even enter the train..

Suddenly,my mind just rotating and thought..this is not right..why is this day become miserable?my friend tabbed me to the present.

'its maghrib,lets pray..
I was thinking that somehow i didn't even heard the call of prayer..Astaghfirullah'We went back to the musolla and prayed.Just then I found the answered to my question..

'Do the people think that they will be left alone on saying
'We believe,' and that they will not be tested?'
(Al-ankabut:2)

'i think we can't make it there after isya..look at the people waiting for the train..'my friend told me.I called my mum to tell about the delay. When we come back to the waiting area,the people was still as many when we left for the Maghrib prayer..What makes me sad is that it is Maghrib but why the musolla is not as crowd as the waiting area?Are they forget the important of prayers?the purpose of their life?

Some of them just can play around playing jokes rather than answering the prayer.If only they knew it.

'The life of this world is nothing but a pastime and play!It is the life of the hereafter that is the true life,if they knew it'
(Al-ankabut:64)

We missed our second train just then..

I was murmuring to myself when I accidentally bumped into a girl and this is where the interesting story begin..I did make some converse with the girl that introduce herself with a name mardhiah,kak mardhiah,I supposed cause she is 4 years older than me.

Ka Mardhiah was also on her way to the UKM..(the same destination as me).

Visit my brother.'she answered when I asked her purpose going to UKM.It seems that Kak Mardhiah just had the same situation as me,she missed the train too..

After introducing each other,I know that the person I'm talking with is a 'gynecologist to be'..Wow,a job that now days women are rarely in it.'Maybe someday I will see you.'She nodded smiling before answering' Insya Allah..if I could make it for my practical exam with flying colours.'We laughed.

Without feeling the time goes fast,my watch shows 10 minutes to 9 when the third train arrived,unfortunately,we didn't make for that train either..feeling a bit disappointed,we make our way to the bench nearby and sit waiting for another train..

'i think i couldn't make it...it's 9.30 and I think the meeting will be done in any hour by now'said kak mardhiah.

Oo I see,kak mardhiah is going for a meeting and she thought that may be she can pay a visit for her brother..

'Don't you wish to see your brother,may be the next train will bring the luck'I suggested.

'I think i can have another try..but this will be the last.I have work to do tomorrow..'When the next train come,we didn't have any chance to even step forward for the train when a number of people just crash into the crowd in the train.

Shorten my story,kak Mardhiah went back to her hostel feeling tired( i couldn't imagine how sad she felt when she called her brother to cancel her journey)

So,that leave me with my friend looking hope for our next train(hope it would be the last one we wait)...

And alhumdulillah..it is although it is a bit crowded but we felt relieved as we didn't have to wait for another train..or may be we have to cancel it...

We arrived at the UKM exactly 15 past ten..my father fetched me there feeling worried but I explained the whole thing.

After I settled my thing,I am ready for my long nap before my phone beep..it was a message from Kak Mardhiah asking how my journey..

I reply with a smile.' alhumdulillah,I'm safely home after 5 train missed..(giggle)ukhwah fillah'

'Nice knowing you..Study smart,pray for my success..ukhwah fillah.'she replied.

The beautiful of ukhwah in islam,it just seem that I've known her for a long time..

Dedicate to Kak Mardhiah..nice meeting you..may our short meeting will left a long lasting ukhwah in our heart.

My journey really didn't waste any because I met a new friend..

'Surely with every difficulty there is relief'
(Al-insyirah:6)

'Assalamualaikum, kak bibi..how's your day today?
'it quite difficult for me after all,but it will not be enough for me to make it an excuse to leave dq! It will not be eccepted'Kak bibi joked.We both laughed.

Last couple of week,Darul Quran had been cheered up by new welcomed students.Ka bibi is one of them.

Unluckily,they all had been tested by the absence of light in their world..they were not able to see the beauty of the nature..pity on them but Allah is the best judge of all..there ought to be a reason whenever something happenned because we all know that Allah knows the best..

Unfortunately for me, I didn't have the chance to be one of their roomate so I just have to go to their room to meet them. Some of our friend had the same room with the blinds in order to accompany them at least until they really settle down and get use with the new environment.

As I mentioned just now,Ka bibi was lucky to have stayed at Dq,not only learning Arabic and Tafsir,she also get the chance on memorizing the Quran using braille.

But what makes me proud and amaze of them,(Ya Allah, I wish I can be as tough as them),they have their own strength to live like other people do.

I once ask kak bibi what makes she wanted to memorize the Quran..and what she said is just three simple but valuable words; I love Quran..

The words really left a big mark on my heart, nowdays,people really use the meaning of love for something that didn't worth..What makes the blinds so special,because they didn't waste their sight on something invaluable to see makes their heart always in calm unlike eye-sighted one,they are more likely to be having problems especially regarding their feelings,After all,eyes is the window to the soul..

In the Quran itself has stated that men should lower their gaze..

'Enjoin the believing men to lower their gaze and guard their modesty,that is chaster for them.Surely Allah is well aware of their actions.
(An-Nur:30)

More strictly on women..

'Likewise enjoin the believing women to lower their gaze and guard their modesty,not to display their beauty and ornaments except what normally appears there of,let them draw their veils over their bosoms and not display their charms except to their husbands,their fathers,their fathers-in-law,their own sons,their stepsons,their own brothers,their nephews on either brothers or sisters,their own womenfolk,their own slaves,male attendants who lack sexual desires or small children who have no carnal knowledge of women.Also enjoin them not to strike their feet in order to draw attention to their hidden trinkets.And O believers! Turn to Allah in repentance, all of you,about your past mistakes,so that you may attain salvation.
(An-Nur:31)

Kak bibi also told that how glad she was been chosen to be a part of 'Dquens'(that what I called for people who studied at DQ)..

Sometimes,I just can't figure or differentiate which one is the blind student,they walk as if they can see,sometimes,we the norms is the one who react like a blind didn't even look where we walk to but just realizing it when we bump onto the wall or fell into the big drain..shame on us.

Some of them did use a crosier to walk but some of them didn't even need us to hold them. Their heart was too chaste that they can rely on it to make their own move.

'We walk when our heart say so,we just believe in ourselves,it was just like seeing a bright light in front of us that makes our feet steps,'explained kak bibi,

My eyes widen in amazement.

As for the boys,their hostel is way far from the masjid that they had to cycled to get there but the distance didn't broke the blind's spirit as I can see they really walks to the masjid everytime the call of prayer was heard.

'You are special,you know..'I exclaimed.

'We are special,'kak bibi corrected.
'as long we take Islam as our religion and Quran as our guidence..Obey what Allah says and avoid His iration'she continued.

In a while,I really feel adviced hearing each word that Kak bibi was saying..

We are special..

'We have indeed created man in the best stature,then We abase him to the lowert of the low,except those who believe and do good deeds-for they shall have a never ending reward.'
(At-Teen:4-6)

'O Rabb!open our heart,ease our task and remove the impediment from our speech,guide us to the Right Way,give us the strength on memorizing Your Words,You are the one who hears all and knows all'
Ameen..