Sunday, March 25, 2012 - 0 comments

Him or him? You choose :)

Bismillah, my friend once asked me, "who's your dream guy?"
And what I usually answered was," It would probably be one of the manga's characters in comics *dayreaming*^^"

*cut it off*

So, it was actually at those time when one of my dearest friend confess to me; " I love someone, but I know it is not the right time, what can I do?"

I smiled at her, quoting what my sister used to say, " To love Him before you love him is a must that will surely brings you an ultimate happiness and serenity of life "





It reminds me of her, and there is nothing that I would like to say, except this dua' that really catched my heart;


Let us love Him before him,ayte?:)


Tolong sampaikan kepada bakal imamku..


Tolong beritahu si dia, cinta manusia bakal membuatnya alpa..


Tolong nasihati sia dia, jangan menyintaiku lebih dari dia menyintai Yang Maha Esa..


Tolong nasihati si dia,jangan mengingatiku lebih dari dia mengingati Yang Maha Kuasa..


Tolong nasihati si dia, jangan mendoakanku lebih dari dia mendoakan ibu bapanya..


Tolong katakan pada si dia, dahulukan Allah kerana di situ ada syurga..


Tolong katakan pada si dia, dahulukan ibu bapanya kerana di telapak itu syurganya..


Tolong ingatkan si dia. Aku terpikat kerana imannya bukan rupa..


Tolong ingatkan si dia. Aku lebih cintakan zuhudnya bukan harta..


Tolong ingatkan si dia aku kasihinya kerana santunnya..


Tolong tegur si dia, bila dia mula mengagungkan cinta manusia..


Tolong tegur si dia, bila dia tenggelam dalam angan-angannya..


Tolong tegur si dia, andai nafsu mengawal fikirannya..


Tolong sedarkan si dia. Aku milik Yang Maha Esa..


Tolong sedarkan si dia. Aku masih milik keluarga..


Tolong sedarkan si dia, tanggungjawabnya besar kepada keluarganya..


Tolong sabarkan si dia, usah ucap cinta di kala cita-cita belum terlaksana..


Tolong sabarkan si dia, andai diri ini enggan dirapati kerana menjaga batasan cinta..


Tolong sabarkan si dia, bila jarak mejadi penyebab bertambah rindunya..


Tolong pesan padanya. Aku tidak mahu menjadi fitnah besar kepadanya..


Tolong pesan padanya. Aku tak mahu menjadi punca kegagalannya..


Tolong pesan padanya aku membiarkan Yang Esa menjaga dirinya..


Tolong khabarkan pada si dia. Aku tidak mahu melekakan dia..


Tolong khabarkan pada si dia. Aku mahu dia berjaya dalam impian dan cita-citanya..


Tolong khabarkan pada si dia, jadilah penyokong dalam kejayaanku..


Tolong sampaikan pada si dia. Aku mendambakan cinta suci yang terjaga.


Tolong sampaikan pada si dia,cinta kerana Allah tidak ternilai harganya..


Tolong sampaikan pada si dia, hubungan ini terjaga selagi dia menjaga hubungan dengan Yang Maha Kuasa..


Tolong sampaikan kepada si dia kerana aku tidak mampu memberitahunya sendiri...


Hanya engkau Ya Allah mengetahui siapa si dia.. Moga pesananku sampai padanya walau aku sendiri tidak mengetahui siapa dan dimana si dia.. Moga dia seekor lebah yang sentiasa memuji keagungan Yang Maha Kuasa memasuki taman larangan dengan sopan santunnya dan bertemu mawar berduri yang terjaga oleh tuannya..


Simpanlah pesanan ku ini sehingga engkau bertemu dengan si dia suatu hari nanti...


A friend once quoted this,

‎ We don’t need to rush things, if somethings are bound to happen, it will

happen…in the right time, with the right person and with the best

reason.^_^


We usually heard a verse in Surah An-Nur, 26;

"Vile women are for vile men, and vile men for vile women. Good women are for good men, and good men for good women; such are innocent of that which people say: For them is pardon and a bountiful provision."

But I believe in our struggle in becoming a good muslim, we should pounder upon these verses from Surah al-Mu'minun, 1-11;
" Indeed are the believers. Who are humble in their prayers. And who shun vain conversation, And who are payers of the poor-due; And who guard their modesty , Save from their wives or the (slaves) that their right hands possess, for then they are not blameworthy, But whoso craveth beyond that, such are transgressors ). And who are keepers of their pledge and their covenant, And who pay heed to their prayers. These are the heirs, Who will inherit paradise. There they will abide. "

May we becomes from those whom HE guides and loves, Amin! Peace :)

Tuesday, January 10, 2012 - 0 comments

Twins of Faith : 3 Steps in Learning The Deen


9:50 am – PICC ,Putrajaya

“We’re late, the speech has started!”

You’ll gonna miss the powerful welcoming speech by Sheikh Yahya!”

“ok, ok, just keep walking and stop nagging” :p

Hehe, eventually, we arrived at the venue around 10 am, just after Sheikh Yahya Ibrahim had ended his speech with the greeting of Salam. Ok, so, is there any interesting topic he came up in his speech just now?

I was eager to know when my sister smiled and answered;

“There are two kind of people in this hall today, the one that will walkout and got nothing, and the one that will walkout and change, you choose!"

“That what I called a powerful welcoming speech” Really, the phrase do catch my attention as I take my seat just beside my younger sister who came a bit early that morning ( we came with a different car )

“ What’s more do I get for this entire day, I can’t hardly wait, Subhanallah, I can see that the venue is fully seated by audience from all around the world, and whenever Dr Zaharuddin Bin Abdul Rahman name was mentioned as the next speaker, our host would asked;

“ Is there any IIUM student here, and they would be a crowd of people who would cheer up clapping their hands and some would answered proudly, ‘ME’.

“ok, sure they would come, and that instance, I turned to my right side and smile anxiously to my dearest aunt ( young aunt, btw, she is just 18 years old ) who is still studying as a CFS student in IIUM PJ, give her a wink that say;

“ya, we are IIUM student!” and my sisters will look at us with a smirk;
“ok, we all know you are IIUM students, don’t need to tell the entire world” with that unsatisfying look in their eyes..LOL

USIM girls with their jealousy would be our answer to them.. haha,sorry sis;)

Right, how is it for a start? ☺

Our Journey of faith has just begun~

One of the talk that really intrigued me is a talk entitled “ Our Youth , the Foundations of the Exemplary Community” by Sheikh Navaid Aziz, one of the instructor of Al-Maghrib Institute in USA.

As the majority of the participants are no doubt still can be categorized as youth, it did give us as youth a better view in the thing we should consider as substantial in our life.

“There are 7 main categories in a wheel to help us (the youth) realize our true potential.

The first thing that is listed is our Deen!

As I recall when ever I attend Al-Maghrib Institute’s seminars, they would talk it over and over again, even I can’t forget the formulae ever since, So what is the formulae? Let me share it with you.

Let us take a step back to the history of our prophet, Muhammad S.A.W, when the first revelation that had been sent to him is Surah Al-Alaq,

“Recite in the name of your Lord who created”

It is mention from the first verse itself, the word IQRA’ which mean RECITE, that most scholars agreed that this word gives the indication of the importance of seeking knowledge ( all kind of knowledge which benefits the deen ), and above all, the knowledge of the Creator and this Deen (ISLAM) .

Read continuously as the more you learn, the more you realize how little you know, I suggest a continuous learning will be the best thing to do! After all, you’ll always get to learn something whenever you open a book, right?:)

Isn’t that Rasulullah had left us the two most valuable things that will never let us astray if we hold fast to them ? Quran and the Sunnah!

And this just remind me of what had Sheikh Hussein Yee said, when he challenge us;

“ You proclaimed that you love Allah, but have you spare your time in reading His word? (Quran ), if so, have you memorize it? And if so, have you try to understand His words and implement it in your everyday life?”

“ You proclaimed that you love the prophet, but have you spend your time to go through all of his hadis? If so, have you memorize it all? And if so, have you try to understand and implement it in your everyday life? “


Subhanallah, indeed, there are still a long way ahead us, and still, we think that we had knew enough? I believe that, our deen is not just about praying five times a day, or fasting in the Ramadhan, or paying the zakat, or perform istikharah ( seriously, I can’t understand why most of us are more worried of something that is not certain
(marriage) rather than something that will be a certainty to us (death).

But, as I say, Islam is more than that, it is our way of life, it start from the time we arise early in the morning until we close our eyes at night. Its about our relationship with the Creator and our relationship with His creation. It is about sharing and helping others , rather just helping yourself , indeed, and this is how it is revealed in the next revelation to our prophet, which is Surah Al-Muddaththir, verse 1 and 2;

“O you who covers himself [with a garment], Arise and warn“

Isn’t cleared that Allah ordered Muhammad S.A.W to arise from his bed and warn his people about Him and Islam? Scholars agreed that this verses show how much important that we have to implement the knowledge that we had learn, especially the knowledge of our deen. But when it comes to implementing it, some of us forget the most important thing of their purpose of creation,

“And I have not created the jinn and the men except that they should serve Me.”
(Az-Zariyat: 56)

Let us reflect our action in everyday life, is it just the matter of pleasing people or pleasing the one and only Lord, Allah? I believe, each of us has desire to live happily in this world, but it is important for us as well, to spend time and effort in investing in the hereafter. When I say, investing in the hereafter, I am promoting on our contribution to this deen. What can we do ( in our strength ) to help this deen? What would be your legacy for this ummah? I just can’t stop envying people who get to live while motivating others, sharing their knowledge of this deen, imagine, what blessing that Allah had bestow in one life whose work is travelling around the world spreading about Islam? Subhanallah, I love those kind of people, and hope to be one too one day! ( Amin )

This is absolutely different with one that makes the world record of travelling around the world within 365 days? That most of us now are busy with just making a world record? How about our real record that is written by Rakib and Atib?

People who aim the akhirah, will have a better life in this world, as I remembered a quote from our dear brother in Islam, he stated;

“As we drive in our road of life, we always need to refill our fuel ( IMAN ), let the 'dunya' be our transport to 'akhirah'”

In other words, whatever we try to achieve in this worldly life, let our ultimate goal be to enter the Jannah! After all, is not the best thing for a Mukmin to have is to see their Lord face when entering His paradise? I believe that is the greatest reward, indeed! And thus makes a believer to try their best to be on their best behaviour. It was mentioned good tongue leads to good heart, hence a person that properly guard his/her deen, will definitely has a good personality to begin with.

Walk the talk, would be my advise ;D ( for me too!)

It doesn’t matter who you are, share anything you know about deen to others, especially to which that are close to you, maybe you are not from that important and famous person, but you have important person around you, your family, your friend, your spouse, your children and your neighbors, you don’t have to be ‘someone’ to spread this knowledge, you just have to be yourself , the most important thing is your intention, let it be that so others can benefits what ever you had shared with them and brought them close to Allah in remembering Him.

The next formulae would be about the third revelation that Allah had revealed in Surah Muzammil verse 1 and 2; the most important thing indeed!~

“O you who wraps himself [in clothing], Arise [to pray] the night, except for a little”

It is all about our relationship with Him, as it is stated in this verse, praying in the night, is our qiamullail. Scholars believe that they are the power that lies in one’s qiamullail, when the time where all of our fellow humans are sleeping soundly, there is the time when we wake up and silence is the only sound, with the blessing of Allah, we take our ablution and pray tahajud.

That is the time, when there is One who remains awake and waits for us to call on Him. That is the time when Allah will come to His servants. Imagine this. The Lord of the universe has offered us a sacred conversation with Him. That Lord waits for us to come speak with Him, and yet many of us leave Him waiting while we sleep in our beds. Allah (swt) comes to us and asks what we want from Him. The Creator of all things has told us that He will give us whatever we ask.

We are told in the hadith qudsi:

“Our Lord descends during the last third of each night to the lower heaven, and says: ‘Is there anyone who calls on Me that I may respond to him? Is there anyone who asks Me that I may give unto him? Is there anyone who requests My Forgiveness that I may forgive him?’” (Bukhari and Muslim)

Imagine, at those moment of silence, in such a peaceful night, we raise our hand and we tell everything that happen to us to Him ( although there is no doubt that He knows all ), but still, you felt somewhat lighten up by having to release all your burden mind to Him, and suddenly, you felt relieved and tranquility entered your mind and heart at that moment, while you shed tears in front of Him, still your heart feel at ease, like someone has comfort you from your trouble.

That is the time we had our sacred conversation with our Lord.

Who would you think that know best about the creation other then it’s Creator itself? Just like scientists who knew best about their machines, carpenters who knew best about their furniture, architects who knew best about their buildings,

And who knows ourselves best other than Allah Himself? He is the one that create us, He is the one that knows us best!

On that Day, we will see the true reality. On that Day, we will realize that two rak`at (units) of prayer were greater than everything in the heavens and the earth. We will realize the priceless check that was left on our doorstep every night as we slept. There will come a day when we would give up everything under the sky just to come back and pray those two rak`at.

There will come a day when we would give up everything we ever loved in this life, everything that preoccupied our hearts and minds, every mirage we ran after, just to have that conversation with Allah. But on that Day, there will be some from whom Allah (swt) will turn away… and forget, as they had once forgotten Him. Nauzubillah!

Build your relationship with Allah! Pray tahajud! Have a sacred conversation with Him!
*reminding myself above others*

As we try to change to a better person in this world, remember this formulae and imply it in our daily life;

Recite, Warn, Build your relationship with Allah ;)

Insya Allah, we will be a better Muslim in a way that we can help others to know Him better, I believe the changes has to start from within ourselves…

As Rumi had quoted;

"Yesterday I was clever. That is why I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise. That is why I am changing myself".

P/ S : save the next categories for the next post, stay tuned☺
Sunday, September 25, 2011 - 0 comments

Realize your dreams!~




When someone ask me." What makes you felt motivated every day? I just smiled and said, "I pictured myself in a motivated mood and pray to become one! And she will look at me with her questioned face. I smiled knowing what is playing in her mind at that time.

" And remember! your Lord caused to be declared (publicly): "If you are grateful, I will add more (favours) unto you; But if you show ingratitude, truly My punishment is terrible indeed." (Ibrahim : 7)


To be truthful, there is no other word to show my feelings right now except GRATEFULNESS.

And all start with a dream.

I dreamed of memorizing the whole Quran, and I accomplished it, Alhamdulillah!

I dreamed of being an IIUM student, and I got it, Alhamdulillah!

I dreamed of being a bi'ah leader, and I experienced it, Alhamdulillah!

I dreamed of furthering my studies in law, He fulfilled it, Alhamdulillah!

I dreamed of having good friends around me, He destined it, Alhamdulillah!

Anyway, why do I talk about dreams this much? Here is where this interesting story begin!~

"Your mind is so powerful that if you believe in achieving something, you'll get it! Insya Allah!" a quote from Prof Muhaya.

" Even if we dream of marrying a rich man?" one of the participant joked.

"The key is to believe in Allah and your dream! But of course, every dream must come with a good intention, only then, He will help you in realizing your dream!" Prof Dr Muhaya answered. Keep your surrounding with positive environment, it'll give you the energy of being an optimist. Have this situations ever happen to you on this past decades you're living?

Situation 1#
You just thought of someone that you may need on that particular time to help you with some tasks , At that time you ask Him for help and you realize just then, you accidentally bumped into that person on that time. Who destined that to happen?

Situation 2#
You felt sad knowing that you failed a subject after you had work hard in it, and at that time you ask Him for strength, just than your friend came to motivate and comfort you. Who send a good friend to you in the time of despair?

Situation 3#
You caught in a traffic jam on your way to your workplace, then you prayed to Him for a relief, and just then as you realized that you just come on time. Or that your boss forgive you for the late comings. Who would you think that guide you to the road safely or who authorised the feeling of forgiving in your employer's conscience?

There is only one answer for these questions above, and I say it is Him, ALLAH, the AlMighty and the All-Knowing!~

Hey, you got the same answer as mine, right?:)

Now, you get the point here, don't you?it is all about our TRUST!

When we put our trust in someone, we'll tend to give up all the things we had just to be with him, when we put a trust in someone, we tend to sacrifice all that we had for the one we trust. When we trust in someone, we'll believe in everything he tells and does to us. Don't we? *typical Malaysian drama*

But just as we try to change that "someone" to "Him"? Try it, that is when you will feel the trust you put in is the best thing to do!

Have we trust in this ayat?

"He knoweth the unseen and that which is open: He is the Great, the Most High.It is the same (to Him) whether any of you conceal his speech or declare it openly; whether he lie hid by night or walk forth freely by day." (Ar-Ra'd: 9-10)


But, has this passed in our mind sometimes?

" I had studied all night, and now I just have to put my trust in Him,Hm, Is He going to help me with this examination?". You trust him but, at the same time you still keeping a little doubt in your heart about Him, you're questioning about His help without realising it!

Or may be, you have put your full trust on Him in succeeding the exam , on the contrary, you didn't do well in it and you tend to blame Him because of your failure? Is that we called as a full trust?

Let us comprehend upon this beautiful and meaningful ayat He had proclaimed;

"But it is possible that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and that you love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knoweth, and you know not" ( Al-Baqarah: 216)


How glad if we can apply this ayat in our everyday life, we will learn to put a full trust in Him!~

We didn't want to end up our dream just like the companion of the gardens right? Let us take a good reminder of this story in Surah Al-Qalam; ayat 17 until ayat 27.

" Before they go to sleep, they tell each other about their plan to cut their fruits in their gardens early in the morning when their poor neighbours were asleep so that they will not try to beg them some foods when they awake. Unfortunately, because of their bad intentions upon the poor people, what do you think Allah had done to their gardens?

Early that morning, as they set out in determination, assuming themselves to be able to cut their fruits and save for their own good, they found out that, their garden had turned into a dark and desolate spot and it became as though reaped."

The moral of the story: Whatever we dream of doing or becoming, make sure it comes with a good intention. For example, you want to have a lot of money, so that you can help the poor people, that is a good dream, so go on in realizing it!

Don't afraid to dream, because when you dream, you will have the courage to fulfill it and that was the time,when you became brave enough to take in every risk that pass on your way in fulfilling your dream.

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams"
Allah is always there to help you, PUT YOUR FULL TRUST IN HIM=)

p/s: I have a dream to became an Islamic novelist one day (biiznillah), strive for it and have faith in Him most!
Now, you write your own dream and fulfill it!:)
Thursday, June 23, 2011 - 1 comments

3 comes before 8!


Bismillahirrahmanirrahim!


1 Jun 1988

One of the happiest moments in my life, I had married!

To a man that I can say would be my ideal type that I search for a husband.
He is cool, good looking, educated, humorous; above all he is such one that take Islam as his way of life. He chose Rasulullah as his role model and stories of sahabah (Rasul’s companion) as his bedtime stories, he even shared with me all the stories and I would be engrossed with all the amazing and enchanting stories of the sahabah ( Radhiallahu anhum) that he told me.

3 May 1989

My first baby was born, and I named him Zayd after the name of Rasulullah’s adopted son, whose name is spelled directly in the Quran. Alhamdulillah, was the only word that passed from my lips at that moment, with my husband beside me, I felt blessed indeed,

Thank You Allah!:)

“ Sister, Is this a true story? Because if it is, I would like to meet them!” They seem to like this story.

“ This is a true story of Mu’min, where ever and whom ever they are,” I confessed. They’ve been bless with a good family, Alhamdulillah, but one day, Allah tested them.

“With?” the sisters asked.

10 July 1989

It was that early morning, about 3.00 a clock, Zayd’s cries surprised me. I rushed to him as soon as I find myself fully awaked. I assumed that he was hungry, I try to feed him, but then, he wouldn’t stop crying.

So, I assume that he needs to change his diapers, I checked but it is still clean. Then I tried to soothe him like I always do to make him sleep, I caress his temple while reciting some ayat, but things just getting even more worse.

I felt my heartbreaks as I saw him crying, I start panicking and woke my husband from his snooze.

‘There must be something wrong with him, let’s go to the clinic”

My husband hurried for the dressers and got himself fully attired. As we arrived at the clinic, the clock showed exactly 4.30 A.M. Luckily, the doctor assured us that there is nothing wrong with the child, just a cause of ‘colic’. For a few weeks of early growing babies, they have times as their digestive systems are maturing, they may have frequent and painful tummy aches due to an allergy or intolerance to certain substances resulted from the feeding. Thus makes them cries.

We went back home feeling relieved as we saw Zayd finally asleep when I cradled him carefully towards his crib.

“ Huh, sure it makes the couple uncomfortable enough thinking that something might had happen to their newborn baby!” One of the sister exclaimed.

“ It can’t be help, it’s nature’s feeling” one of them added.

“True, what feeling’s do you supposed that occupied the mother’s heart at that moment when she hears her baby was crying?”

“Worry, pity but most of all love and care!” They answered confidently.

“But then…” I try to continued my story.

“What happened?” They asked curiously.

Another call was heard, and what does the couple told each other at that time?

“ Wait a minute, just a short nap, it has been a tiring day!”

It was the call of AZAN!

Is it what usually happened around us? If not, it did happen to ourselves, right?

Whenever things unusual happen to us, we rushed for an aid, but have we rushed to ‘aid’ our soul? Faghfirli, Ya Rabb!

Haven’t it been cleared as the Muazzin stated,in every Subuh’s,

“ Prayers is better than sleep, Prayer is better than sleep!”

“Is it not what we love most in this worldly place?” I remind them.

Turn to Surah Al-Imran, verse 14,

Beautified for mankind is love of lusts, that which the self lusts after and calls for, beautified by Satan, or by God as a test — of women, children, stored-up heaps of gold and silver, horses of mark, fine [horses], cattle, namely, camels, cows and sheep, and tillage, the cultivation of land. That, which is mentioned, is the comfort of the life of this world, enjoyed while it lasts, but then perishes; but God — with Him is the more excellent abode, place of return, which is Paradise, and for this reason one should desire none other than this [abode]”


But have we realized who is the Most Merciful- the Most Loving and the Most Caring to His creation?

And who is the one who authorize the feeling of worry, love, and care deep inside the mother’s conscience?

Allahu Akbar! He is the greatest!

“…That, which is mentioned, is the comfort of the life of this world, enjoyed while it lasts, but then perishes; but God — with Him is the more excellent abode, place of return, which is Paradise, and for this reason one should desire none other than this [abode]”

Back to Surah At-Taubah, verse 24;

When Allah says the word ‘than’ doesn't mean that we have to neglect or to throw away the feelings we had towards our beloved one, it just to show that 3 has to come before 8!

“3 have to come before 8? Care to explain, dear sister? I s it some sort of mathematical formulae or what?” They seem confused.

But I just regard them with a grimace :]

“It is the formulae to solve His undeviating Love!”

“ What is it? What is it?” The sisters cry impatiently.

“ To love Allah, to love his Messenger and to love Jihad MORE than to love the 8 things mention in verse 24 of Surah At-Taubah.”



They nodded affectionately.“And what is the best aid to fits in with this formulae?” I questioned them.

“Our conscience in arithmetic!” One of them joked.

I laughed as I heard one of them blurt out;

“Eventually, we’ll have to admit that number 3 do have to come before number 8!”

“Actually, the best aid is.” Before I have the chance to answer my own question, I heard their reply;

“Don’t ever give up!”

I nodded and smile approvingly. As my eyes formed tears and touched my cheek that instant, I purposely wipe it as I whispered,

“Let us be your humble servant, Ya Rabb!”

“Our Lord, do not cause our hearts to deviate, do not cause them to incline away from the truth, in [their] desire to interpret it, such as is inappropriate for us — as You caused the hearts of those [others] to deviate — after You have guided us, [after] You have shown us the way to it; and give us mercy from You, as a strengthening; You are the Bestower.” (Al-Imran: 8)

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