Listen to your heart...^^,

It has been a while( is it?..haha)i haven't writing any post in my blog..really have to do a 'major cleaning' in here..

It just that, to tell you the truth,in a while, my brain will full of ideas in writing but the next,it seems to lost in the wind unconsciously..sometimes I feel like I'm out of the spirit and ' Am I qualified to motivate others as I'm not fully-motivate myself? will always haunted me whenever I start to press a letter on my keyboard..I always intend to find my real strength in it but seems I'm not ready yet until..

You motivate others,you are motivating yourself nonetheless"

"You write, you developed and you will learn!"

" He Who taught (the use of) the pen,Taught man that which he knew not."
Surah Al-Alaq:4-5

And that makes me inspirit and that time I told myself,

"While I have the time and energy, why not use it beneficially?And even I'm not brave enough to talk in front of thousands of people staring straight at me, I'm sure will be brave to write to thousands of people whom happen to hoping in my blog"

As we write,we are actually talking and sharing what exactly playing in our mind, of utmost importance,we write with full sincerity because everything that came across from our deep heart is full of verity.And whenever those pieces of writing spark other in a virtue,that is when we called it as blessings.

Talking about yesterday isn't worth if it happens to be blame of..but if it something that can make us enthusiastic for the future,there is something we need to learn from our past..because the past is a history,and history can be something that we can take lessons from..

And that what happen to me,I was having a dinner with my aunt yesterday along with my friend when suddenly, I felt something is not right( it got to be related with the instincts,I suppose?hmm)

Have you ever felt like crying without any reason to? or you just felt heavy-hearted all in the sudden?or have you ever approach your friend and suddenly told her "I'm sad!" and when she asked about the reason,you just give her a shrug and in a while she will look at you in confusion?

But that time, who will we be thinking utmost?
Yes! ALLAH..
He give us the feeling..for what reason?
I would rather think the answer is all in your mind..
just think of it for a while..
And you will find that it all about ALLAH's love towards us...

And whenever it happens to me,I bear in my mind,

Sometimes ALLAH breaks our spirit to save our souls,
He breaks our hearts to make us whole,
He allows pain so we can be stronger,
He send us failure so we can be humble,
He allows illness so we can take eater care of ourselves,
He takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us..

And that makes me realize and understand that we live by ALLAH'S grace...

"You know the secret of pillars of ISLAM?"My aunt asked me after we have done dining.
(Actually, it just my aunt and my friend who are enjoying the food, not me,because at that time.I'm really not in the 'MOOD')

"It happens to reveal the truth of the world!!"My aunt start her talk.In start,I'm quite confused with her chosen word but I give her a nod to continue her story and that time me and my friend just becoming a good listener to her.

And suddenly, I smiled in gratitude..I felt motivated enough and my mood had slightly change after hearing her talk..My spirit suddenly came back and that time I just console myself,'I have to write about it!"

And I'm doing it now.....still smiling reviving what happen to me last night..

"What is the first pillar in Islam?"My aunt question me.As I answered like a good student to her teacher,"Shahadah la maksyu!..

"It shows that everything we do,has to be based on One God which is ALLAH and our prophet,messenger of ALLAH..
To Him our intention to..
That's why Shahadah is the basic in being a true Muslim.
That's why it will be the first thing to be done to become a Muslim..
Whenever we have a new brother in Islam,he will be told to utter shahadah!'

"What is the second pillar in Islam??
This time my friend answer it anxiously.."SOLAT!"
My aunt smile and nodded..
Solat is the greatest thing ALLAH has given to us..because it revealed our act in the daily life

example?

Takbiratul Ihram...
It shows that we as Muslim had to be well-prepared in every situation or test that came across us..no matter how things turn out,make the best out of them..
Salam..
why do we have to face our side whenever we utter our salaam in our prayer?
It shows that, we as Muslim must spread salaam to whomever we met showing that we are praying a good life for them..

"How about Haj?"I asked my aunt.

'Haj revealed us to remember that we are just ALLAH'S slave
haj teach us to be humble and bear in the mind that all of us is just the same..
What makes us a difference from other is just our IMAN..

Why do we run from safa to marwa?
The teaching in that act is to make us realize that whenever we having a failure or 'break down',we will not ever-ever-ever(If I said it three times, I mean it to be serious xD) to be in despair or frustrated..as long as we believe that there is always hope and we just have to strive for it!!

"Don't wait for your ship to come in, SWIM OUT to it!!
Do you get it?

Special thanks for my dearest Maksyu..
for inspiring me in writing..

~reminder for me before others~

That morning of tranquility...

'Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar Allahu Akbar'

I can feel calmness within my very soul as I saw people walking heading to the beauteous mosque just beside the corner of Jalan Sentosa Street.As usual, it would be a great pleasure in my village to have all of us gathered in this beautiful and blissful day for us to perform Solat Hari Raya..It was sure another joyful experience I had after the end of RAMADHAN..

Yup.Syawal is the month of victory for us muslim..How Allah love us more,He gave us the month of Syawal for us to celebrate our victory after a full month fast,this is the day where we can break our fast( suited for it called the day as 'haram puasa')..
Quite a long start,don't you agree?

'Lailaha illallahu allahu akbar,Allahu Akbar wa lillahilhamd'

The sound continue smoothly emitting my eardrum creating a pleasant tune I enjoy much as I step the entrance of the mosque..Quite a sudden serenity I've got here as the coolness of the weather outside entered the air-conditioner building as I open the door,the first thing that surely catch my anxious eyes that time is a group of old folks sitting on the front line(seems impatience before the solat started)

Suddenly,one of them turned and smile,"Kak Sah!"..
'OK,my grandma's acquaintance..I suppose!'I smiled.And a while I'll be a good listener to their old-fascinating stories when they're in the age of mine,if I'm not mistaken but sure a fascinating one and quite a scene too where I can see a pair of long-time-no-see friend exchanging the ir hugs while talking about their lives..I wonder what would happen to me in 20 years time,can I be like them with the company of my old friends?Together we prayed and hear the khutbah?It was one of my dream to have it.Insya ALLAH..

Do I recall to tell you about a little boy I saw in the mosque?

i think not yet( I just love to answer My own question!hehe)

Here the story begin,I was sitting alone at the edge of the mosque after performing solat sunat,and ready to have a quick i'adah of Surah Yusuf when a cute little boy came sitting beside me.i stop my i'adah for a while in the care to ask the little one(about 5 years old)wether he lost and where could his mom gone to but the boy just give me his cute little smile and stare the Quran I'm holding just in front of me and said'bacelah!I'm quite like a statue for a while but I just continue with it and surprisingly he was reciting Surah Yusuf along with me without looking at the Quran..

I like this boy,I'm amazed with him!"I thought myself..

How I adore him and how he can memorize the Quran,(if not, still,Surah yusuf)in that age!Subhanallah..

Suddenly,looking at the bunch of children playing around outside the mosque revive me of the little boy I saw at the last Raya..Eversince, that makes my heart intrigued to memorize the Quran..sure that time which happen during the first Raya 2007..

What usually would we get on the first Raya?

Duit Raya?
Different kind of Kuih Raya?
New Baju Raya?
or a full scene of relatives during Raya?


This is what I get...

Duit Raya to spent more..
Kuih raya to eat even when my brain alert me'FULL,,FULL'
Baju Raya to show off with the latest touch of my own aunt
And a dull scene of relatives since my perfect place is in my closed bedroom upstairs with books encounter me..


this is what I get when I'm a child!!
But as I grew older and while I'm standing in my own feet,
this is what I should get..

I get my 'duit Raya' and the money change hands(I give it to my mum)
'why did you give your mom?'
She need it more than me..I'm happy to give her..'my straight answer to my companion at that time.

i get kuih raya specially made by my aunt and brought it back to my hostel..
Instead I eat it all alone by myself,it is a good thing to share with my friends,rite?
After all,sharing means caring!(I heard that phrase somewhere,but I can't yet remember it,hmm)

I have my new baju raya,with such a beautiful colours of my choice,still I have scarf and stockings to suit with..
As what my father always warned us,AURAT,AURAT would be his favourite words but it sure makes us siblings well-trained..Thanks a lot DAD!

And a scene with my relatives?
Sure will be,after hearing my grandmother's,I and my other siblings should be in an open-eyed after this whenever our relatives pays us a visit..been motivated enough by our long-experienced granny who known to be a welcomed and adored one in our entire family..

Well,pen off!....tooo many works,sooo little time
Would be idle for a while~{sorry}
Salam~

Don't miss the oppurtunity!

'What can possibly this Author's intention at this late night,typing on her keyboard?I rather think she had a story that is ready to explode throughout her mind at this right moment~but I wonder what makes her so eager and desperate of?only she know the answer..'

'Did I heard someone talking about me?*unsatisfied look*

So,i'm back on my keyboard..I can't think of any possible reason why I got too engross with writing this night,it just seem I can't stop my mind from thinking of it..terified huh?
Don't worry,it is not a contagious disease,i believe..

Maybe this not-so-long-to-be Hari Raya celebration makes me in excitement..just talking about it,I'm sure there is a bubbling of joy within our insight,right?

We are talking about gathering here,dear friends...yup,a liveliness and cheerful one,I supposed..
It is all everybody's expectation,don't you think?

Gathering maybe a simple word in english which I do believe of all's intention into it..but for us muslims,it means a lot more than a word of gather,it means tying bond with our kins..sure means a lot?

Because,it is in my concern from my own experience whenever it is on working day,i'm rarely in a company with my relative that sometimes*most of the time actually*i'm totally in an awkward state whenever my relatives pays us a visit..I rather be shameful of myself whenever my grandmother give me her jaunty smile and said'poe duk depan,konal sedagho 2..nanti,cari laki,tengok-tengok sedagho sendighi.tak segan ko?'

Can't stop smiling whenever I recall that phrase of her..

In my mind,I totally agreed,but I don't know,it just have become a habit of me and my siblings*not including my little brother,he's a hyperactive one that sometimes can be annoying..can't figure how my other relative would considerily calling him..'cuteeees'*
May be he is,after all..hehe
He sure be floating in the air if he read this..*shhh*

As me and the other bunch of girls would rather be at the back*in the kitchen* making excuses...we're are washing dishes,i'm stiring the 'rendang'..and other excuses only-Allah-knows~

Sure have to make a difference this year~hopefully..

I didn't want to end up just like what my grandmother babbling about~hehe

Hopefully,this coming Eid fitr would bring us to a better ties and bonds of ukhwah with our family and relative,not forgotten dear friends~

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN~

Salam^^