Thursday, June 23, 2011 - 1 comments

3 comes before 8!


1 Jun 1988

One of the happiest moments in my life, I had married!

To a man that I can say would be my ideal type that I search for a husband.
He is cool, good looking, educated, humorous; above all he is such one that take Islam as his way of life. He chose Rasulullah as his role model and stories of sahabah (Rasul’s companion) as his bedtime stories, he even shared with me all the stories and I would be engrossed with all the amazing and enchanting stories of the sahabah ( Radhiallahu anhum) that he told me.

3 May 1989

My first baby was born, and I named him Zayd after the name of Rasulullah’s adopted son, whose name is spelled directly in the Quran. Alhamdulillah, was the only word that passed from my lips at that moment, with my husband beside me, I felt blessed indeed,

Thank You Allah!:)

“ Sister, Is this a true story? Because if it is, I would like to meet them!” They seem to like this story.

“ This is a true story of Mu’min, where ever and whom ever they are,” I confessed. They’ve been bless with a good family, Alhamdulillah, but one day, Allah tested them.

“With?” the sisters asked.

10 July 1989

It was that early morning, about 3.00 a clock, Zayd’s cries surprised me. I rushed to him as soon as I find myself fully awaked. I assumed that he was hungry, I try to feed him, but then, he wouldn’t stop crying.

So, I assume that he needs to change his diapers, I checked but it is still clean. Then I tried to soothe him like I always do to make him sleep, I caress his temple while reciting some ayat, but things just getting even more worse.

I felt my heartbreaks as I saw him crying, I start panicking and woke my husband from his snooze.

‘There must be something wrong with him, let’s go to the clinic”

My husband hurried for the dressers and got himself fully attired. As we arrived at the clinic, the clock showed exactly 4.30 A.M. Luckily, the doctor assured us that there is nothing wrong with the child, just a cause of ‘colic’. For a few weeks of early growing babies, they have times as their digestive systems are maturing, they may have frequent and painful tummy aches due to an allergy or intolerance to certain substances resulted from the feeding. Thus makes them cries.

We went back home feeling relieved as we saw Zayd finally asleep when I cradled him carefully towards his crib.

“ Huh, sure it makes the couple uncomfortable enough thinking that something might had happen to their newborn baby!” One of the sister exclaimed.

“ It can’t be help, it’s nature’s feeling” one of them added.

“True, what feeling’s do you supposed that occupied the mother’s heart at that moment when she hears her baby was crying?”

“Worry, pity but most of all love and care!” They answered confidently.

“But then…” I try to continued my story.

“What happened?” They asked curiously.

Another call was heard, and what does the couple told each other at that time?

“ Wait a minute, just a short nap, it has been a tiring day!”

It was the call of AZAN!

Is it what usually happened around us? If not, it did happen to ourselves, right?

Whenever things unusual happen to us, we rushed for an aid, but have we rushed to ‘aid’ our soul? Faghfirli, Ya Rabb!

Haven’t it been cleared as the Muazzin stated,in every Subuh’s,

“ Prayers is better than sleep, Prayer is better than sleep!”

“Is it not what we love most in this worldly place?” I remind them.

Turn to Surah Al-Imran, verse 14,

Beautified for mankind is love of lusts, that which the self lusts after and calls for, beautified by Satan, or by God as a test — of women, children, stored-up heaps of gold and silver, horses of mark, fine [horses], cattle, namely, camels, cows and sheep, and tillage, the cultivation of land. That, which is mentioned, is the comfort of the life of this world, enjoyed while it lasts, but then perishes; but God — with Him is the more excellent abode, place of return, which is Paradise, and for this reason one should desire none other than this [abode]”

But have we realized who is the Most Merciful- the Most Loving and the Most Caring to His creation?

And who is the one who authorize the feeling of worry, love, and care deep inside the mother’s conscience?

Allahu Akbar! He is the greatest!

“…That, which is mentioned, is the comfort of the life of this world, enjoyed while it lasts, but then perishes; but God — with Him is the more excellent abode, place of return, which is Paradise, and for this reason one should desire none other than this [abode]”

Back to Surah At-Taubah, verse 24;

When Allah says the word ‘than’ doesn't mean that we have to neglect or to throw away the feelings we had towards our beloved one, it just to show that 3 has to come before 8!

“3 have to come before 8? Care to explain, dear sister? I s it some sort of mathematical formulae or what?” They seem confused.

But I just regard them with a grimace :]

“It is the formulae to solve His undeviating Love!”

“ What is it? What is it?” The sisters cry impatiently.

“ To love Allah, to love his Messenger and to love Jihad MORE than to love the 8 things mention in verse 24 of Surah At-Taubah.”

They nodded affectionately.“And what is the best aid to fits in with this formulae?” I questioned them.

“Our conscience in arithmetic!” One of them joked.

I laughed as I heard one of them blurt out;

“Eventually, we’ll have to admit that number 3 do have to come before number 8!”

“Actually, the best aid is.” Before I have the chance to answer my own question, I heard their reply;

“Don’t ever give up!”

I nodded and smile approvingly. As my eyes formed tears and touched my cheek that instant, I purposely wipe it as I whispered,

“Let us be your humble servant, Ya Rabb!”

“Our Lord, do not cause our hearts to deviate, do not cause them to incline away from the truth, in [their] desire to interpret it, such as is inappropriate for us — as You caused the hearts of those [others] to deviate — after You have guided us, [after] You have shown us the way to it; and give us mercy from You, as a strengthening; You are the Bestower.” (Al-Imran: 8)

Tuesday, June 21, 2011 - 0 comments

Don't Give up!

"Say: "O Allah. Lord of Power (And Rule), Thou givest power to whom Thou pleasest, and Thou strippest off power from whom Thou pleasest: Thou enduest with honour whom Thou pleasest, and Thou bringest low whom Thou pleasest: In Thy hand is all good. Verily, over all things Thou hast power."(Al-Imran: 26)


I did mention about ‘another long story’ in the recent post, right?

Let me retype the last question, in case you forgot.

“How can we get His Love, what’s the best way?”

"And to tell you the truth, do you really know what my answer would be?

I can’t tell!” really, that was my reply. Not that I can’t tell because it’s some sort of ‘private and confidential’ things to be, it is just that, I really didn’t know the exact thing to apply with when it comes to ‘doing something best’ or ‘the best way’!

As for me, no matter how much you’re trying to do the best in seeking His love,there is still a long way to reach it, no offense, I’m just telling this so that you can think;

Relax your mind for a while and think, you have prayed 5 times daily, do your fasting during the Ramadhan* even fasting on every Monday and Thursday*, you have paid your zakat, every year* and intentionally will do it in the future, Insya Allah*, you read the Quran everyday* some even memorizing it, Subhanallah* and you perform your Haj whenever you have the chances and the money*

But still you can’t felt His Love, haven’t those things happen to you?

And sometimes, some of the people chose to give up! Wana’uzubillah!

“Why,Why, Why this thing happen to me?Why me?Why me?” Keep blaming the One-and-Only-Who-Knows-Best..Wanauzubillah!

That is why, when the sister ask me about the best way, I’ll not tell her to do this or to do that, something that can make her felt closes to Allah, I positively stated that every single of us would know the right thing to do when it comes to pleases Him, right?

But the one thing I would firmly stated is “Don’t ever give up!”, whatever you do or forbid yourselves in doing in order to please Him, there is only one that matters most when it comes to His reward (Jannah). And that is His blessings!

Haven’t Allah promises for whom that put an effort *not giving up* in the seeking of His blessings clearly in Surah Az-Zumar, verses 53?

Say: "O 'Ibâdî (My slaves) who have transgressed against themselves (by committing evil deeds and sins)! Despair not of the Mercy of Allâh, verily Allâh forgives all sins. Truly, He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.

Have faith in him and pray that He will guide us on this journey towards the Eternal! Amin!

The sisters was all in gloomy, “Why with that pity faces?” I asked curiously.

“ People have been created with feelings, right, sometimes we can feel really happy, but most of the time, there something that we can’t tell deep inside our heart, it just happen to makes most of all in sadness and feeling like giving up!”

And one of them continues;

“It is just that, besides the doa, how can we really built this faith towards Him so that we can never had the feeling to give up even once?”

Now, that is a question for me and for you!

“I’ll tell you one little secret that keep playing on my mind lately as I try to understand a verse from the Quran; but before that, do you want to know what’s the ayat is?”

Turn to Surah At-Taubah, verse 24;

“Say: ‘If your fathers, and your sons, and your brothers, and your wives, and your clan, your kinsmen, and the possessions which you have acquired, and merchandise for which you fear there may be no sale, no longer viable, and dwellings which you love, are dearer to you THAN God and His Messenger and struggling in His way, so that you have refrained from emigrating and struggling for the sake of such [things], then wait until God brings about His command — this is meant as a threat to them. And God does not guide the wicked folk’.”

Have you realize that Allah use the word “THAN”? Which mean “MORE”?

Have we considered and think deeply in our heart, have we been that person who loves Allah, and Rasulullah, more that anything in this world?

And that makes the sisters startled in a minute before confessing;

“ Subhanallah, it is a long way in seeking His Love! It is not as easy as we thought, have we felt save already with all the good deeds that we have done all this years? As if we felt confident that we’re the one that will have His reward in the HereAfter?”

I nodded approvingly. Do you want to hear a story?

They all lighten up and smiled as they lend their ears to hear this ordinary story of mine:)

p/s: I like surprises and I like making one too!~ so stay tuned...:D

Monday, June 20, 2011 - 1 comments

Seeking the True love!

In the Name of Allah, the Compassionate, the Merciful.

Let me asked you a question, dear brothers and sisters.

When someone asked you this:

“Do you love your wife/ husband?”
“Do you love your siblings?”
“Do you love your kin ships?”

How would you respond?

“Of course I do!” most of us would answer.

“ How do you show it?” Again, most of us will immediately proclaimed without any doubt;

“ I’ll do anything that will please them, we even makes surprises on some special occasions in the favor of making them happy.”

But, undeniably, some will added;

“ but you know, when it comes to a relationship, problems and misunderstanding can slightly occurs between us, and when it did hit some of the couples, being considerate to each other will be a better option and solution, in that case, they’ll never do something that will regret them for the rest of their life! ”

“And that is…” I asked blindly.

“Divorce, of course!” the sister answered shyly* she is married, by the way*

“Oh, I see!..hehehe” I smiled.

Sure you have a point, there, sister!:)

Wait, why did I mention this much? Is there something that I missed?

And, one of them would say;

“ the best love is to Allah and His messenger (Muhammad S.A.W)!”

“Indeed, sister, the best and the only true love would be the Love Of Allah and Muhammad, Rasulullah”

The question is how do you show it?

“ I’ll do whatever that pleases Him ad follow the Sunnah!”

Well done! It’s the best thing to do, indeed!

But wait! It’s not as easy as you think, sister, because when it comes to seeking His love, you’ll be tested.

“Test?” they all nodded agreeably. “ Yes, indeed, if something bad happened to us, it doesn’t mean that Allah displease us, it’s His test to increase our stage of Iman!”

Then, I asked her again;

“Something bad? Is that it? Just if it’s something bad happening to you, that would be the only test?”

Revealing the ayat from Surah Al-Baqarah, verses 155;

Allah had stated;

Surely We will try you with something of fear, of an enemy, and hunger, by way of drought, and diminution of goods, as a result of destruction, and lives, as a result of slaughter, death and disease, and fruits, by way of crop damage: that is to say, We will try you to see if you practice patience or not; yet give good tidings, of Paradise, to the patient, (during calamities;)”

How about someone that lives happily and blissfully?

Heh, they got all they wanted. What bad thing can happen to them?
They have money, they can buy anything, they have children they proud of, they have educations that they can work with..

Are they being tested too? YES!

Let us turn back a bit, to the ayat mention above;

Didn’t Allah mention about fear? Checked!
An enemy? Checked!
Hunger? Checked!
Drought (or shortage of supply)? Checked!

Diminution (Reduction of goods), ex. Food? Checked!
Loses of lives (our beloved ones, to be precise)? Checked!
Disease (our sickness, even if we’re having just a cold)? Checked!
Damages of crops ( something that we valued as it comes from your hardship and your work done)? Checked!

Are we making a list now? hehe
YES! I would like you to list it even not on a piece of paper, let it be on your mind, right now..

Because, here the real question..

Have you imagine that all of those things mention above have been playing on the mind of the ‘riches’ or the ‘blissful people’ Have you ever wonder?

Even the riches man alive, although they live happily and successfully,
saying joyously,” Oh, I’ve been bless indeed, this is all because my hardship during this years, I’ve been struggling to get this certificate, and now, I excelled and have a better life and job”

But, he forgot mentioning something really important!

All praises to Allah!”. He totally forgetting it, and that is when Allah’s blessing took over,

“When?” The sisters are eager to know.

“When He put FEAR in their little hearts.” I said.


FEAR of losing their money,
FEAR of losing their child,
FEAR of losing there job,
FEAR of losing by their enemy,
FEAR of losing anything that he had with his hardship,

Why did Allah mention FEAR from the first line?
Why? Because fear is the biggest test that Allah had given to us and to all!

And that is the test, whether we become the believers or the non-believers. And look how the ayat end beautifully?

“..But give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere,”

And Subhanallah, how the ayat continues;

“Who say, when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah We belong, and to Him is our return; They are those on whom (Descend) blessings from Allah, and Mercy, and they are the ones that receive guidance.”

Indeed, only the ones that receive guidance would be the one that been bless by Him.

It doesn’t matter if you’re the poor or the riches, in the end there is only Taqwa that matters most. See how He’s testing us now? And what did most of us do?

Masha Allah, He knows all! And it was just us that being forgetful!

He has remind us in Surah Al-Fajr, verses 15 and 16, as he proclaimed;

“And as for man, the disbeliever, whenever his Lord tests him and honors him, with wealth and other things, and is gracious to him, he says, ‘My Lord has honored me’. But when he tests him and restricts his provision for him, he says, ‘My Lord has humiliated me’.”

Let us reflect ourselves, have we been the kind of man mentioned above?
Forgive us, Ya Allah, indeed we are forgetful!

“Now, I know, everyone is being tested!” said one of the sisters

“And the test is sign of Allah’s love!” I added.

Can you imagine if Allah hadn’t tested the guy with fear of losses? What can happen to him?

“ He will loses his way from His Guidance and ‘Hidayah'! Is it mention in the ayat itself sister?”

“Yes, you’re right!!” I smiled.

“When Allah gives what you asked for, doesn’t mean that He pleases you, when Allah hold something from you, doesn’t mean that He displease you, it is all part of the test!”

“Do people suppose that they will be left to say, that is, [that they will be left alone] because of their saying, ‘We believe’, and they will not be tried?,(tested with that which will reveal the sincerity of their belief).”

We choose to be grateful or to be boastful!

“Sister, you’re right, to seek His love is not as easy as we thought! It could be something we like but at the end we never know if it the best for us or not! Is it bringing us closer to Him or not!” the sister concluded.

“ How can we have His love, then? What is the best way?” another sister asked anxiously.

I smiled before answering;

“Hm, that would be another long story, stay tuned…”