Faith in Him Most

Sunday, December 7, 2014 -

A wake up call!

" It's a long road, after all. I need some rest. 10 minutes should be enough" mumbled Haya. Traveling can be tired but fun, no doubt. But then, it is just time when Haya get into a deep sleep not realizing that one hour has passed.

And another hour…

And another two hours…

And there goes the sunset…

She woke up looking at the bright shining moon as if the moon was saying to her mockingly, " Finally, you have woke up! Good morning sleeping beauty!" and that just pissed her off. She's late. How can she get into a deep sleep without realizing how time flies.

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Another story telling, oh! I miss writing. I miss this blog. I miss writing in this blog. I miss creating stories and write it in this blog.* wait a minute.What am I blabbering right now?*

Dear Readers, Please don't mind me, and continue reading…

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Haya was on her way for a promised dinner with her friends at a Korean Restaurant nearby their hotel. They supposed to meet there at 9 pm. She keep looking at her watch anxiously while trying to catch a cab passing by the road."Oh please let me be there on time. Please oh please." She prayed.

A cab stop by looking at her waving her hand and an old man with a mustache greet her with "Assalamualaikum". Before he can utter another word, Haya interrupt him saying " Korean Restaurant, Kiara Mall nearby Kyo Won Hotel, please, and make it fast, because I'm late, and thank you! " and the conversation end.

The old man get startled with Haya's behavior, looking at her from the front-view mirror, he murmured to himself. " What on earth must have happen to the young girls' nowadays, where goes their manners and clothing's too, pity on them ". Looking at how Haya's dressed, he shook his head feeling sorry for her. Deep down in his beautiful heart, he prayed that Haya found her way on a true path.

20 minutes later, the cab stopped in front of the huge building of the Kiara Mall. Haya seems to be mesmerized by looking at it glowing with all the colorful decorative light and laser before she came to her sense glancing at her watch which shows half hour past nine.

"Oh shoot!" she cursed. Just before she is about to enter the mall, the old man from the cab stop her and said," Girl, here you go!" passing her a folded piece of blue paper and left after saying," May Allah bless you!" Haya paused for a moment before she opened the folded paper and read the words scribbled on it and it touched her heart. It was a wake up call.

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The memory seems alive on her mind right now. Haya closed her diary after reading it over and over again, and she cannot thank enough for the old man that she met during her travel to Korea last year, as she grab the piece of blue paper that she slipped in her diary and look at it smiling to herself uttering "Alhamdulillah" praising Allah for all the blessing He put in her way searching the truth. That was the piece of paper with an amazing phrase that had changed her whole life until this very moment.

Below it, it was written : " My daughter give this to me, I think you need it more."

And she turned to her laptop in front of her and start pressing on her keyboard and wrote,

Sometimes you need that someone who came into your life suddenly offering you those precious advice making you realize that you have to make a change, and that someone is a gift from Allah to you, a sign He put in front of you to show that He loves you and want goodness for you

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( " Ketika mana kita terkesan dengan nasihat seseorang, maka bersyukurlah, kerana Dia sebenarnya menghantarkan wasilah buat kita untuk kembali kepadaNya dan berubah menjadi lebih baik ") -14 October 2012, Facebook

I have this someone who wrote this and tagged me,

I can't remember how many times I have read this entry but it really touched my heartThe best quote I found here " what ever comes from your heart, is always about what you desire to have, and by writing it, you teach your heart to believe that anything can happen when you have a strong desire for it "Thank you Sarah Maimun Aqsha.

…and I'm thankful for her being that"someone" who came suddenly asking me, " when will you write again?" making me realize how much I missed this hobby of mine ( writing) and hoping that this piece of writing can continue to benefits her and others who read it. May Allah reward and blessed her. Amin.

This piece might be the beginning of the previous year that I have wasted while making this blog dormant for a while, and for those who happens to wonder, what happened to me for this past year , this is my answer;

" Alhamdulillah, being healthier than ever and still manage to write in this blog! " *giggles*

Thursday, January 24, 2013 -

My Diary~

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Writing from your heart

" What are we going to write for our next post, huh? any idea? " the girl turn to her loyal friend sitting just beside her while drinking her cafe latte. " I assume that you would know best " was her reply.

" Humph, I thought I can have some help with a different view from others rather than this brain of mine " she grumbled pointing out to her head which is covered with a blue hijab. Looking at that pitiful face in front of her, she decided; " How about a walk in the park, I say that the weather this morning is quite relaxing, may be in this way, you can get some ideas for your next post ."

The girl smile agreeably. Without hesitation, she grab her blue coat, take a glimpse of herself in front of the mirror, and step out from her big bungalow house heading to the park next to her neighbourhood.

That was a great deal by looking at a view of nature. One thing that brings one a great serenity insight one's soul. The beauty of the nature itself captured the heart of beings. The colour that blend together in harmony create a balanced ecosystem that bring peace to this world. The girl monologued. And suddenly, she pick up her lucky-pen and take a piece of paper from her black brief case eager to write another wonderful idea that has popped out from her mind that moment. Smiling looking at the lake in front of her, she wrote;

" The story begins with...."

" Hey, Maria, what you are doing alone in the park? Have your holiday started? How's collage? New friends? And by the way, have you meet Laila? I heard she move in to our neighbourhood a few months ago" There goes a tones of questions from this dear friend of her. Maria can't stop but smiling ear to ear having to meet this longed- besties-of- her. Having regain from a sudden encounter, she answered with a laughing voice;

" You sure startled me, in this time when I have this ideas ready to burst out from my brain right now, and yes,yes, it's great, a ton of them, and no, haven't meet her since I just started my holiday few days ago "

"How's that for the answers to your questions? " Maria laughed joyfully.

" Stop teasing me, oh, but I really do miss you, " she hugged Maria. Maria smiled in tears hugging her back thinking that how long it has been for them to shared this beautiful friendship. " It has been almost 10 years" she murmured herself.

" Hm....so you are writing about friendship...again? " suddenly, Amy, her loyal friend come sitting beside the girl looking at the mesmerizing view in front of her. " What's wrong with it? " the girl asked looking unsatisfied. She put down her pen and turned looking directly to the girl beside her. " Tell me, is anything wrong? " she demanded.

Amy shook her head before answering; " There is nothing wrong with it, it just seem obvious to me that you still waiting for her to return, back into your life, I mean your dear friend who had been missing about three years ago, right? " The girl's eye widen in shock hearing Amy's honest comment. '

But then, the girl grinned; " You know me well, Amy". " But you know what, I always believe that, what ever comes from your heart, is always about what you desire to have, and by writing it, you teach your heart to believe that anything can happen when you have a strong desire for it "

Amy smiled, " As expected from a writer, you sure have caught me with your 'words'. That I dare not to interfere. They both laughed. " So, what will happen next? " Amy asked curiously. The girl stared at the paragraph that she had wrote a while ago.

" That is still gonna be my secret alone " she said. " What? I thought you gonna share it with me, so that I can give you this-different-view-of-mine that you asked for just a while ago? " she teased. The girl can't help herself and burst into laughter hearing Amy's reply. " Read this, and tell me what you think of it!" she passed her the sheet of paper that she hold in her hand.

" Hm, writing something that comes from your heart, huh? Your true desire? now I know what you really want right now. " With a confuse look, she asked, " now, what? ". Amy pull her hand and hugged her whispering, " Indeed, it shows your true desire, what comes from heart touched a heart, what you really need right now, is a good company ". The girls hugged each other while tears fall down from their eyes, feeling thankful enough for this blissful moment of their friendship.

But, deep down in this girl's heart, is that the story is not about her longed friend that had been missing three years ago, she is writing about this loyal friend of her, that her writing brings to the reality of what she really desire of from this 10 years of friendship. Indeed, Amy is her good companion that she thank for.

" And that was just about a few paragraphs from a whole unfinished story, it doesn't hurt to keep believing and keep writing, because one day, this writing of yours would become a reality in your strong and believing heart. Keep writing from your heart. "

-Sarah Maimun Aqsha, 2013~

Thursday, August 9, 2012 -

My Diary~

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A 10 Years Of Friendship

" Friends on that day will be foes to one and another- except the Righteous Ones. ( Az-Zukhruf : 67 )

Time sure flies , dear friends, but as we recall the sweet memories in our life, the film will appear endlessly in our mind and will never ends..

Just an ordinary post , I hope to share with you about how much I thank Him who gives me this blessings of having all of you as my dearest friends that I love for the sake of Him, and a bond of ukhwah that I hope that would last in Jannah. Amin.

Remember ? dear friends that I love for the sake of Allah...

When we were in primary 6 preparing for our PSR, I was sitting in my class adoring the Institut Tahfiz Al-Quran Sultan haji Hassanal Bolkiah building just behind our school ( Sekolah Persediaan Arab ).

What comes in my thought at that moment was that I'm going to be there one day! I can see people wearing jubah from a far and what playing on my mind at that time was that I'm going to wear it one day!

It was at the musolla when I overheard someone talking to a friend that how hopeful she is to be given the chance to continue her study in Tahfiz..and that time I murmured to myself, we will met there, one day! And you know, who is that wonderful girl? She is Ili Mardhiah :)

Subhanallah, Allah heard us, and He give us the chance to be part of it!

Remember ? dear friends that I love for the sake of Allah...

When we have been selected for the interview, we were struggling to do our best to memorize a page that was given to us within half an hour time. I met Ili Mardhiah and she was sitting beside me waiting to be called into the examination room. *He did answered my doa, we meet on the first day of the interview in Tahfiz* And as I look at her memorizing the whole page, I can see the way she struggle on it. She read it out loud and clear, and that was the moment when I first learn about one of the easy way to memorize the Quran. And just by looking at her gives me the motivation to memorize my page. Thanks Ili.

Remember ? dear friends that I love for the sake of Allah...

When we were announced and informed to be part of the tahfizians, we were at that beautiful hall, we were given a talk about our progress in the Tahfiz,And I can see the hall was crowded with families who have the same dream to see their sons and daughters succeeding in memorizing the Quran.

Alhamdulillah, we were the chosen one, among hundreds of them who took the interview, only 36 of us has been given this golden opportunity to be in this wonderful school. To tell you the truth, He is the one who choose us and give us this responsibilities to keep and spread His words to others.

Remember ? dear friends that I love for the sake of Allah...

During our orientation week, we played a game that introduces us of the real meaning of friendship, its importance and its effects to our life. Friendships turns strangers into siblings, turns unknowns into known, turns ignorance into lovable, turns haters into lovers, and makes us strong when we parted.

Remember ? dear friends that I love for the sake of Allah...

The song that we sang together during our orientation,

' Sesegar hijau daunan,begitulah kita diibaratkan,tiada siapa yang bisa memisahkan kita, antara kita semua..'

And I say, this song will always be the precious song that we shared together.

The phrase keep playing on my mind like a recorder, that whenever I heard it, it bring back the old-sweet memories I had with all of you , and there is just one doa that I recite;

"Oh, Allah, we meet for the sake of you, and we parted for the sake of You, and let us meet again for the sake of You!

"And I really mean it, I love having you all as my friends..

Remember ? dear friends that I love for the sake of Allah...

The first week living in the hostel was tough for some of us, never been away from our family, yup, that was my first experience too living in a hostel (although our hostel seems to be like a hotel!) but still we felt homesick that week..:-)

But do you know, how precious it is for me to live there having friends like you?

It is in the Tahfiz that I first learn to be an independent person.

It is in the Tahfiz that I realize friends were part of our family (since we were with them all along ) and the fact that we are all siblings under one roof.

It is in the Tahfiz, that I first learn about love and friendship.

I learned about the importance of co-operation and the meaning of giving not wanting.
I remember when it comes to someone's birthday, none of us will be left behind to be wished.

I learn that it is not the presents or how much it cost that makes one's happy, it is how much they remember it as a friend.

Remember ? dear friends that I love for the sake of Allah...

We were at our class, 14 of us were sitting in a circle (we always do it..right,my friend?) We let out all the dissatisfaction that messing up our mind at that time to others, and I learned the importance of listening and understanding our beloved friends and being honest to them.

Remember ? dear friends that I love for the sake of Allah...

When I left the Tahfiz, at the end of our second year, I really didn't have any chance to meet all of you, I just meet Hanan and Jimah, I didn't expect that it will be the last time for me in the Tahfiz , but I know Allah knows best..

Do you know my friends , I was overwhelmed when I received a letter from you after a month I'm back in Malaysia..

I still remember that you told me to send pictures and letters to all of you but I didn't make it ,and I sincerely apologized for it.

It is in the Tahfiz that I realize how lucky I am to memorize the Quran and making it part of my life now..

As I was studying in DQ, I met some of you AGAIN..I realize how thankful I should be to Allah that He answer my prayers all the while. Alhamdulillah.

And this is what I always believe in,

QURAN unite us, QURAN will also re-unite us..

And now, we all have took our own path to success in our journey of life, I'm so happy to hear it, but all I hope is our Quran is still in our heart just like our friendship.

Remember, dear friends that I love for the sake of Allah...

We put our life and hope in order to live as a tahfizians, memorizing the Quran, do you wish to leave it now?

Remember, we memorize it and it is our responsibility to keep it and work with it..

Isn't a waste, for the opportunities that Allah has grant upon us, but we neglect it , right,my friends? Reminding myself above others.

And you know what is my hope?

I hope that one day, I will be given the chance to visit Brunei, and see these professional friends of mine that make the Quran part of their life, continuing in memorizing and understanding the real meaning of the magic phrases in the Quran..

I really hope to see you all again one day, brothers and sisters..Amin..

AZEM-JABBAR-AIZAT-ZIZIL-SAIFULLAH-FAIZAL-HANIS-NASYITH-SUFI-IRMA-ZAKIRIN-IMAN-SAUFI-NAZRI-ZULKHAIRI-YADI-LUQMAN-MALKAN-AMAL-RUSYDEE-HAFIZ-RIZU-ILI-RAIHANA-HANIM-ZAEMAH-JEERAH-ASHILA-HANAN-QIBAH-EZZATI-MIDAH-KHUZAIMAH-GMAH-KA FARAH

Did I forget someone?(giggles..)

( A tribute to my dearest friends of Institut Tahfiz Al-Quran Sultan Haji Hassanal Bolkiah Intake 2003) _Ukhwah fillah abadan abada!!_

Sunday, August 5, 2012 -

My Diary~

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A gift of love ( PART 3)

And those who pray, "Our Lord! Grant unto us wives and offspring who will be the comfort of our eyes, and give us (the grace) to lead the righteous. ( Al-Furqaan: 74)

" Oh, so you're getting married? " my friend was delighted to hear my story. " Oh, I'm so happy for you, so, I can see that is a good news, after all, why with the unsatisfying look? my friend try to figure out what makes me so tense at that time. And I told her what is playing in my mind," It's just that...I haven't meet him, and the only thing I told my mother when she asked about my answer to the proposal is : Let me meet him."

My mother was quite shock with the answer, and said: " Are you being doubtful, it is as if you are confused, dear, is anything wrong? "

" No, its not it, I'm just being doubtful about myself, if I'm good enough for a man like him, he memorize the Quran, and he educated well, and all I want is a man that is please with me the way I am. "

" Dear, have you forgotten the doa' which I taught you long ago? " my mother smiled.

" Oh Allah, if You let me marry someone, let it be someone that whenever I looked at him, he will remind me of You, so that our marriage will bring us closer to You " I recited.

That is the reason why I like to meet him before I decide anything, I want to make sure if he is the one that I'm looking for all these years. I'm not looking for a perfect man, but I'm looking for a man that try his best to become a good one.

My friend looked at me and listen attentively, " oo, I see, so , when will you are going to meet him?" Next week, Insya Allah, "I answered. " Do pray for me, dear"

"I will" we exchange hug and bid farewell before taking our leave. ' Oh, thanks for the treat, by the way, next time, it will be my treat!" I added.

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The day we met goes smoothly. And the answer he gave me convinced me enough. " I want to complete half of my deen", he said. And as I believe, Istikharah is not all about seeing signs in a dream, but when your heart feels calm and tranquillity, and you accept it with agreeable and ease, that is when His signs is bestowed upon us. The sign of affection and mercy.

" And of His signs is that He created for you from yourselves mates that you may find tranquillity in them; and He placed between you affection and mercy. Indeed in that are signs for a people who give thought. ( Ar-Rum: 21 ) "

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Just after the day of our marriage, we had a short conversation;

" Why do you choose me? I asked. " I don't choose you, Allah chose you for me" he answered.

" I'm not the perfect girl you are looking for. I don't memorize the Quran like you do." I'm testing him.

And he give me this meaningful answer; " I'm not looking for a perfect girl, I'm looking for a good one. it's okay, that you don't memorize the Quran, because I'm looking for a girl that can listen to me reciting the Quran and she will look at the Quran while reciting it with me, but to memorize it is optional, I believe."

I smiled meaningfully before he added; " When I recite without looking the Quran, I get a reward, but you look and recite it with me, and you get double of the reward."

And that just makes me grin wider.

But, then, I try to test him more." What if you find something that will make you feel irritable of me? I asked him directly.

And this is his beautiful answer," I pray that Allah gives me patience in dealing with you and gives you patience in dealing with me"

Subhanallah, is there any greater gift that Allah can give to a woman when she becomes a wife than A PIOUS HUSBAND? And I praised and thanked Him with the gift that He grant upon us. A gift of love.

Indeed, when you becomes a " Fatimah ", you will get a "Ali". Be 'her' and you'll get 'him'.

" ...good women are for good men and good men are for good women.." An-Nur: 26

" O Allah, I seek for Your Love, and the Love from those who loves You and practices that leads me to Your undeviating love, Amin"